James.

[to preface this...piece? i would like to say it was written many years ago and it is not my favorite. however, i think the ending is cute, and if taken into account what is actually happening in the span of 30 minutes time after meeting the character "James" then it is quite an interesting delve into the female mind....maybe....]


hello acquaintance.
i have learned your name, and you have heard mine.
we will sit together and share glimpses of impossibility.
i think such things that you know not of,
and taking an odd sense of pride about my secrecy.
i am thinking of my newest betrayal.
i love(d) him, and he love(d)(s) me?
she "loves" him, and he does not love her.
they shared moments of something that meant everything to me.
and once to him.
now they are hers, in vain and by much deceit,
for i cannot stress enough his nothing.......

acquaintance, you do not know how sad i am.
i sing loudly and dance about as if i were a dervish,
again i take pride in such secrecy,
that something inside me is brutally wounded,
and that you cannot tell.
i briefly entertain the idea of our situation.
you are much different than i, sir.
my mind chooses another route,
and it is quite an opposite one....
For somewhere in this place there is a boy i dream of;

his hair is dark and matted,
and though unshaven and dirty,
his brilliance continues to leave a glint in my eye.
his scratchy voice speaks in rhymes and sings of truth and beauty.
where my betrayal is causing decay his words bring me a joy,
UN ABOUND
that has stopped my tears and brought shallow, excited breaths to me lungs....

though, acquaintance, i find you appealing,
i do not know you heart and in his...
in his is something that also beats in mine.
BE NOT DISMAYED!
For though i have chosen him over you,
you are just my acquaintance,
and you never knew anything.
:)